ignore the bout of emo-ness frm me yesterday... i dunno wat came over me to post that. alot of thoughts were running through me i just lost myself in the process. sometimes when you want something so badly, you let the pressure get the better of you.

BUT i am feeling much better today. ok, tat's an understatement. ELATED, OVER THE MOON is more like it. i still cant wipe that stupid Cheshire grin off my face since that call. close friends would have known why by now but i dun want to reveal too much till i sign on the dotted line. what i can say that someone up there does love me. :)

i am glad i waited and stayed true to myself. i may not have found perfection but this is somewhere close to it. yes, it had been a long journey. agonising, and nothing which i really want to go through again. wat i have learnt from, is that watever life throws at you, you just have to catch it. a bed of roses may have thorns but if you dun get get close in fear of hurting yourself, you will never get to enjoy the fragrance of the petals.

and ra, thanks for that lovely email this morning. it touched me so much i finally cried and that sense of relief which i needed so much. nothing is more comforting than the knowledge of having someone who truly cares. we are ding-dong-ing soon ok!